My Life As A Fat Person
It is very difficult to live in a world where people who are very fat are not able to do most things that others can do. Because I am obese, I can let you know what it feels like to live in my world.
|We can begin with the most obvious, appearance.|The first thing people see is how I look, so that is where I’ll start.|People are usually judged by the way they look, and that is first on my list.} You stare wistfully at your reflection in the mirror. The image that we see in the mirror is never going to appear in a positive way. It is almost impossible to look past the obvious and find the beauty that we know is hidden somewhere. We spend a lot of time trying to make sure that we have the best possible appearance to present to others, but are well aware that no one will notice. It does not matter how hard we try and how nice or expensive our outfit is, the rolls of fat seem to appear everywhere and are impossible to ignore. You determine that the best way to survive is to not look at yourself throughout the day and hope that no one else notices either.
Your place of employment is your next stop. Even though your job does not require too much physical activity, even the slightest activity turns your face a bright red from the effort. You eat your lunch, but regardless of what you decide to have, you know that people are silently judging you and sometimes you think that maybe you should avoid all food and try to lose weight fasting. , but you know that it will never work for you.
Maybe you can turn to a clothing store for comfort. Unfortunately, there are not many choices that you have to shop at and stay on the outside. You have tried it before and were immediately put to shame by the disapproving glances of the sales people or your fellow shoppers. Not only is it tough to get around in the store, they do not carry any clothes that are close to your size. You may find a few items that could potentially look okay on you and you say a prayer as you take them to the fitting room. As is usually the case, looking at the clothing in the mirror brings disappointment. The fact that you are obese is not improved when you are trying on something new.
You live carefully and are forced to ponder and worry about things your thin counterparts give absolutely no thought to. Going to a movie theater or a show strikes fear into your heart because you know you will either not fit in the seat or will be squished into discomfort taking the person to the right and left to the same hell you will be visiting thanks to your encroaching fat.
Then there’s your health that you deal with because your knees creak under your added weight, and your feet swell and throb due to the extra pressure placed on your feet, and your back hurts all the time because of the extra girth you place on your poor vertebrae, and you cannot even do a simple six pack ab exercise program that you used to do when you were younger.
Your friends and family are supportive and you know they love you but they will not let you forget, not even for a moment, how much weight you’ve gained or how much better you would look if you lost some weight and even though you turn to message boards like biggest loser weight loss forum where there are people who are just like you, you seldom find the support you really need. That is what it is like to be really fat. I live through this all of the time. {Maybe not everyday, but just enough days to make you really seriously consider becoming a hermit.|Sometimes it can be forgotten and a good time can be had, but then reality comes back and wants to make you hide in a closet somewhere.|For the most part, we do not like to live our lives this way, although happiness does find our way intermittingly.